When people ask me what kind of artist I am, I like to tell them I'm an escape artist.
What was I running from? Myself.
AMANDA'S STORY
I was 35 years of age before I finally met myself.
It happened one Thursday evening in the summer of 2010 as I sat on a therapist’s floor, looking for a cloth to cover the naked, chopped haired barbie doll I had decided was me.
It was in that session, I discovered that I knew way more about what I truly needed than I ever had believed.
I just never learned to trust myself.
That fucked up Barbie was a shocking insight into how I'd always treated myself & the beginning of a journey that would see me burn my entire life to the ground, before daring to build it back up again.
But this time, as my TRUE self. In other words, the woman I might be if I stopped believing shitty things about me.
I'll be honest, it hasn't been easy. In fact, it's been the hardest work I've ever had to do. Because I've had to confront an awful lot of shit about myself & I didn't always like it.
Self compassion as it turned out, wasn't my strong suit.
I was a complete ARSEHOLE to myself, comparing, judging, pressuring myself to always be 'the best'.
But it wasn't my fault. Just like it's not your fault if you're an ARSEHOLE to you too.
But it is our responsibility to stop it.
Because honestly, it's just so boring & it makes cool people, who are not arseholes to themselves, want to avoid you like the plague.
And they will, until you learn to put down the many sticks you use to beat the ever loving shit out of yourself.
Neuroscience is teaching us that true self-expression might be one, if not the most important of ways, for us to connect more meaningfully with life.
Learning to not be an arsehole to myself has proven over and over again, to be the work of my lifetime.
This, in spite of a fierce resistance to love & trust myself NOW & not WHEN I reach some magical future place where I finally 'get my shit together'.
Mine is a story of TRUE SELF RECOVERY. Maybe yours is too?
Because it matters to me that I enjoy my life. That I live the story I want to tell & have told about me.
It's as simple as that, really.
Learning to KNOW, LIKE & TRUST yourself is a pilgrimage of the soul. It is a COMMITMENT. A PRACTICE that takes time & a shit load of patience. It takes creativity, courage & self compassion.
But essentially, it requires faith.
Faith in the process.
Faith in your teachers.
And faith, above all, in yourself.
My offering to you, is an invitation to COMMIT to walking the path of true self recovery.
You don’t have to hustle. You don’t need a 'valid' reason to justify the investment of your time & energy. And yes, you can certainly make the journey alone. But aren't you tired of trying to figure this shit out on your own?
That's where I come in.
This is not about 'finding yourself'. You are not a missing sock in a pile of laundry. You already know EXACTLY who you are. This is about BELIEVING yourself & believing IN yourself.
And I teach you the PERMISSION, THE INTELLIGENCE, THE AUDACITY & THE POWER, to do it on PURPOSE, no matter what.
Client Words
my clients are a DREAM & here's what they have to say.
"To simply say Amanda is a great instructor misses the magic. She is an amazing creative guide, channeller & an inspiration to spend time with. She filled my toolbox with tons of creative techniques & I'm just so excited to take everything I've learned even further."
Kat Gottfried
Oregon, USA
"Before working with Amanda I was on a continual search for “the answer”. I bought every book, did every course that promised any or all of these things. Our work unearthed revelation upon revelation for me."
Rachel Wade
Tender Participant
"So some real revelation is magically happening through this process. I used to border on my truth & what I REALLY felt inside. Only because I was terrified of what others would think. I am in love with this (new to me) way of expressing myself. I can bloody well say what I want. Amanda has helped me voice my truth with no regrets and I’m stronger for it. "
Elizabeth Whitley
PODCAST SUPERSTAR
Ok maybe not a superstar, but I have had my say on a few!
Grey Area Drinking
August 2023 | Time: 58 min
Amanda openly shares her experience of grey area drinking, the devastating impact it can have on a person's sense of dignity, self worth & mental health & how sobriety has changed her perspective on relationships.
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What's More Valuable Than Money?
July 2023 | Time: 38 min
"The closer in relationship I am with my money, the more calm I feel. And the further away I am in my relationship with my money, the more distressed I feel"
Corporate To Calm
Nov 2022 | Time:1:12:15
Amanda talks about her journey with self-esteem & how women are conditioned to take up as little space as possible. She teaches worthiness is an identity & the importance of being true to yourself.
Your Truth Shared
July 2022 | Time: 49 min
Amanda discusses how you don’t owe your decisions loyalty & her relationship with resentment. We also hear Amanda’s take on overdelivering, financial exhaustion & the dangers of straying away from the truth.
Choosing Different
April 2020 | Time: 45 min
Amanda's description of grief as 'the unwanted companion' is a sentiment shared by all of the GE team. Amanda & Sasha discuss this relationship & the importance of remaining present to your lost loved one.
The Unruffled Podcast
July 2019 |Time: 128 min
Tammi & Sondra talk about their fabulous Portland meetup at Amanda’s profound RAW workshop as well as Amanda’s unfurling transformation that has occurred since they last spoke.
How the pieces fit together.
2018 | Time: 62 min
Amanda talks about her beginnings as a make up artist & how her background in creativity, hospitality and psychotherapy, form and inform the pillars of her practice.
"Conversation with Amanda, is deep and revealing and speaks to the dichotomous humanity in all of us. "
Sondra Primeaux
The Unruffled Podcast
"Amanda is a highly engaging and fascinating person but also really funny...real and honest. Amanda normalises the human condition"
Stephanie O'Sullivan
The Informed Creative Podcast
"This lady might just change the way you look at art [and self], forever."
